Years ago I remember sitting in my dad's home office playing on xanga (MAN, I feel old...haha) when I heard this song...
In open fields of wild flowers,
she breathes the air and flies away
She thanks her Jesus for the daises and the roses
in no simple language
Someday she'll understand the meaning of it all
He's more than the laughter or the stars in the heavens
As close a heartbeat or a song on her lips
Someday she'll trust Him and learn how to see Him
Someday He'll call her and she will come running
and fall in His arms and the tears will fall down and she'll pray,
"I want to fall in love with You"
Sitting there I remember thinking; 'Man... I want that to be me.' I want to fall THAT in love with my Lord. I want to trust Him with open hands and an open heart....
He's more than the laughter or the stars in the heavens
As close a heartbeat or a song on our lips
Someday we'll trust Him and learn how to see Him
Someday He'll call us and we will come running
and fall in His arms and the tears will fall down and we'll pray,
I want to fall in love with you.
Now fast track to tonight...
I had just left community group having shared some special 'God moments' (ask me about them when you can).... with tears of pure joy and excitement streaming endlessly from my face. As I climbed into my car and turned on the engine; I hit the CD button; and wouldn't you know it... that amazing song came on....
And the tears came even stronger as I realized that it had happened. I realized that my prayer from so many years ago has been answered. I don't know when, I'm not really even sure how... but I fell in love. I fell in love with my Savior; and my life hasn't been the same since.
Pray for me, my friends, as I head off to share the Gospel and what the Lord has done in my life for a week @ Camp Cowen. I am eager with anticipation and excitement to see God move.
:-)
-K
Thursday, June 13, 2013
Monday, June 10, 2013
Every boat's unsinkable... until something unthinkable sinks it. :-)
At the end of the day; remember that even the most 'unsinkable' of vessels was sunk... by an ice cube...
And if an ice cube can do THAT to a boat that big & bad...
I've been reminded the past few days of just how sinkable I am as a vessel for Christ. So here it comes... the transparent, ugly, and honest truth.
I am, in fact, the chief of sinners. ((pheww... feels good to get that off my chest)
Every single daggone day I make stupid choices and sin; sometimes quite overtly; sometimes unintentionally. I hurt people. I'm hurt by people. I say I trust God; and yet I doubt Him. I make selfish choices out of sheer pride. I take on too much and allow important things to be sacrificed. The list could go on and on... so for the sake of time (cause really... I could go on and on). let's just skip to my point.
My point being; is that the truth is; while I seem to 'have it all together' ; I beg for grace more often than I can remember... or care to count.
The truth is- that even a vessel that lives their life with the intentions of glorifying God and being all they can be; is still susceptible to the icebergs that plaque the sea of life we traverse.
I've learned through the past few years; and in particular the past 12 months; that in all moments (especially those potential capsizing moments) my God... oh my precious Lord... is so much more than I can ever imagine. He's so much greater than the box I want to keep Him in. His grace pours over me like Niagara Falls. ((So glad His love is unconditional; and not works based.)). Honestly... even thinking about it now; brings me to tears.
How beautiful is it that when my vessel is on the brink of capsizing... He can straighten me out; set me back on course; and calibrate my compass to keep me focused on the prize.
For I am nothing; without Christ.
The truth is, I, the vessel itself; is as sinkable as they come... but the Jesus living in me; is not only completely and utterly unsinkable; but He keeps me afloat, and is my life raft when I feel the sea get rough.
As Pastor Shay once told me; eventually every illustration breaks down... but; regardless; I hope you get my drift. ((Get it... drift?? hahahaha lame. I know. lol))
Lots of love!
Kristina
And if an ice cube can do THAT to a boat that big & bad...
I've been reminded the past few days of just how sinkable I am as a vessel for Christ. So here it comes... the transparent, ugly, and honest truth.
I am, in fact, the chief of sinners. ((pheww... feels good to get that off my chest)
Every single daggone day I make stupid choices and sin; sometimes quite overtly; sometimes unintentionally. I hurt people. I'm hurt by people. I say I trust God; and yet I doubt Him. I make selfish choices out of sheer pride. I take on too much and allow important things to be sacrificed. The list could go on and on... so for the sake of time (cause really... I could go on and on). let's just skip to my point.
My point being; is that the truth is; while I seem to 'have it all together' ; I beg for grace more often than I can remember... or care to count.
The truth is- that even a vessel that lives their life with the intentions of glorifying God and being all they can be; is still susceptible to the icebergs that plaque the sea of life we traverse.
I've learned through the past few years; and in particular the past 12 months; that in all moments (especially those potential capsizing moments) my God... oh my precious Lord... is so much more than I can ever imagine. He's so much greater than the box I want to keep Him in. His grace pours over me like Niagara Falls. ((So glad His love is unconditional; and not works based.)). Honestly... even thinking about it now; brings me to tears.
How beautiful is it that when my vessel is on the brink of capsizing... He can straighten me out; set me back on course; and calibrate my compass to keep me focused on the prize.
For I am nothing; without Christ.
The truth is, I, the vessel itself; is as sinkable as they come... but the Jesus living in me; is not only completely and utterly unsinkable; but He keeps me afloat, and is my life raft when I feel the sea get rough.
As Pastor Shay once told me; eventually every illustration breaks down... but; regardless; I hope you get my drift. ((Get it... drift?? hahahaha lame. I know. lol))
Lots of love!
Kristina
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