i'll take the background... You take the lead.

i have been convicted recently of the following…

Sometimes we become so enamored with a certain style of ministry that God has equipped us with, that  we are prone to inaccurately believe that that one mode is how we will serve God till death. We fail to see that while God never changes, we aren’t God but rather humans; that reside on an earth prone to change.
We can become SO consumed with an illogical idea that ministry can only happen in one specific way that we can miss the glory of God who works through all ways great and small. The problem is that if we envision our ministry in this one prescribed fashion, we can very easily can miss a chance to minister ((that God Himself may have provided)) … sometimes, that chance- might even be staring us in the face.
It seems that we get so caught up in our ’importance’ in God’s plan, that we fail to remember that we are, in fact, just a reflection of Christ- and nothing more without Him.

We are the moon… here to shine brightly on the earth, but fall into the background in the light of the morning [Son].

Maybe it’s time to sit down…and think… just STOP- and think…
God, am I really allowing you to run the show?

Close to the end of summer, i heard an incredible Lecrae song... that spoke profoundly to what's been on my mind...

~It's evident You run the show, so let me back down. You take the leading role, and I'll play the background. I know I miss my cues, know I forget my lines I'm sticking to Your script, and I'm reading all Your signs.

 

I don't need my name in lights. I don't need a starring role. And why gain the whole wide world, if I'm just gon' loose my soul. And my ways ain't purified, I'll live according to Your Word. I can't endure this life without Your wisdom being heard.

Prayin' the whole world will start embracing stage fright. So let me fall back and stop giving my suggestions Cause when I follow my obsessions I end up confessing. That I'm not that impressive, matter of fact I'm who I are. A trail of star dust leading to the Superstar.

I know I'm safest when I'm in Your will and trust Your word. And I know I'm dangerous when I trust myself, my vision blurred. And I ain't got no time to play life's foolish games.~

i don't even know how to close, because there is still so much to say. 

i just... couldn't and can't continue living a life comfortable in where i was.

God called me to great things when He called me to ministry long ago. 

And i don't know what that will look like... but i know i'm ready and willing.

AND MAN.... has the past week been intense. 

Really God? Have You seriously called me to help plant a church? WHERE DID THIS COME FROM?